w///o you

empty out the wallet  
my heart needs change  
weeks' gone by  
it's all the same  
banking on nothing  
except his bed  
sleeping endlessly  
killing the pains
leaving me cold
palms sweating
hopeless and in the hospital  
i was lied to  
or maybe no secrets were kept  
just separate from my ears  
crying, i drown  
-- bottle after bottle  
seeing the money ripple  
into my bloodstream  
just to try to remember