Everything That Makes Me Angry

Everything That Makes Me Angry

The lack of emotional intelligence taught in school * that liking children is not a prerequisite to teaching * that people don’t understand teaching and parenthood are the two most radically important jobs in the world * that parenthood can be entered into by mistake* that children could ever feel like a mistake*the fact that our culture perseverates on our collective and individual mistakes but not on how to solve them* that people think the world needs fixing* that I think the world needs fixing* that we aren’t currently capable of enjoying where we are who we are with and what we are doing* that we live our lives on a vertical axises trying to constantly define everything as “better than” and “less than” * that mud is seen as dirty* that spiders are seen as scary* that death is feared* that death isn’t talked about* that pain and fear are avoided* that we treat our elderly our homeless and our mentally unwell as rejects* that we have a notion of us versus them* that people think we need to shield ourselves from “them”* that science and religion ultimately reveal that the point of life is to escape it (under the ever impressive guise of “transcendence”) * that when I feel happy and balanced I feel alone* that people who are greedy and ignorant also feel alone despite having the whole world on their side*the fact that some days i actually believe that the “whole world” is greedy and ignorant” the fact that this proves my own ignorance* the wish to sift through the bull shit and find meaningful help and answers in a sea of fear mongering and inflammatory comments* that the internet is the single greatest and most revolutionary invention of all time and it mostly gets used for asinine nonsense* that we are the first culture in the history of mankind who were not taught how to meditate by our family/elders/community/schools* that all the most important things I want to learn I must learn on my own* that we think Harry Potters world of magic is a mythical one* that true Love in our culture is becoming a myth* that people don’t smile and hold each other more often* that platonic respectful touching is taboo/unusual, but rape is common*that those who speak out against injustice are silenced/mocked/persecuted* that writing is my obsession yet seems passive and trivial*that I must do something to be something in the world* that i live in a world which simultaneously experiences both obesity and starvation epidemics* that after all this time we haven’t figured out how to share* that we haven’t realized we are each other's most effective anti-depressant* that I don’t think i’ve ever met an emotionally and mentally well person in real life ever*that you told me to stop talking to my imaginary friends*that these were the best friends i ever had* that cellphones are easier to commit to*that people substitute real world accomplishment for video game achievements* that children are raised by television screens* that we see a child with lots of energy as being diseased* that we tell them to sit down* that we tell them to be afraid* that we shield them from every real experience of Life and spoon feed them our worst neuroses* that people can’t sleep because the city never gets dark* that people can’t sleep because they won’t turn their screen off* that people can’t sleep because they can’t turn their brains off* that alcohol is the acceptable substance even though it is by far the farthest removed from any transformative or healing experience* that pharmaceutical drugs kill more people than any illicit drug put together* that doctors only treat you like the blank space to be filled on a prescription pad* that my feelings of you being thoroughly bored by now are reflected in my own need to take a break from this dismal list*that the list goes on and on indefinitely*

What Keeps Me Going

** the Faith I have in myself to never let any of this stop me from striving to be a more Loving more Authentic more Compassionate Human Being*because I understand what I am up against* and I know my Love needs to be BIGGER and STRONGER in order to survive* and if it never had a heavy weight to carry* how could this happen?**