Trapped In My Own Hell

My emotional needs are not valued.

I am powerless against myself.

Lost in my own confusion

waiting anxiously for it to be dealt.

But how can i get my point across,

How can i longer bear?

The hideous hell that life can bring

crying but no one seems to care.

They misplace frustration for anger,

misjudge what i have to say.

but the only time they listen

is when something bad is said.

I realized with deep concern,

that i am all alone..

alone i came from my mother's womb

my siblings distress are shown.

hate is among us, hate is all i feel.

hate i feel for my older brother..

with a disgusting sex appeal

when I feel like I don't belong,

when I am drowning in all my tears..

razor blades and rubber bands take all my childish fears

I wish i was somewhat better,

to play an important role..

but the only time i'll feel better

is when i'm put in a hole..