Did I Say That?

So this is what it feels like
To feel so left behind
To show your feelings in the air
Only to be instantly turned away

And this is what it sounds like
Crying for so many nights after
Waiting for a sign
Any kind of sign

I don't want you to shun me
Clinging to a dream that will remain just that
Burning memories of you in my mind
that don't mean shit to you

So I asked myself, "Am I really that bad,
That you won't even come near me?"
At the tip of my tongue the answer was "Yes"
But, at the bottom of my heart I'm wondering...

Do you know?
Do I really think that?
Sometimes you know I over react
And I fuck up constantly around you
And I wish that I could go back

And you know I'd drag myself through fiire at
your side
And you know I'd give my life to protect you at any
cost

And I need some sympathy here
And I need to call you my own
I'm standing in the light of my mistakes
And begging you to notice me

And I know you need some time to think and hide
But the truth is hard to swallow when you're
choking on your pride

So I asked myself, "Am I really that bad,
That you won't even come near me?"
At the tip of my tongue the answer was "Yes"
But, at the bottom of my heart I'm wondering...

Did I say that?
Did I say that?
Sometimes you know I don't know how to act
And what I say never comes out right
And I wish that I could start all over
But I'm like that

And I wish that I could go back

And I need some sympathy here
And I want to call you my own
I want to take you in the back seat now
And make it known

And I know you need some time to think and hide
But the truth is hard to swallow when you're
choking on your pride

I don't want to be this wide-awake
Fighting for a love that doesn't exist
And hanging off the edge of every word you said
Knowing that it cut me so deep
I don't want to be this complicated
You can drag it out, but I can wait
I stumbled when I talked to you that night
But it sounded like angels howling

Did I say that?
Did I say that?
Did I have the nerve to tell you that I love you
I would have never taken it back

Did I say that?
This time I'm just gunna go
Did I say that?
This time I'll have to hold back
Did I tell you that I fucked up cause it
Would have been a matter of fact?
Did I say that?
This time I'm keeping my head down
Did I say that?
This time I'll fuel my own fire
Did I say that?
This time I won't stand by your side
Did I say that?
This time I'll swallow my pride
Did I say that?
This time I'm letting go
Did I say that?
This time I'll forget about it all
Did I say that?
This time I'm walking through the cold
Did I say that?
And I wish I could take that day back

The final bell rings and I tear up a bit
Realizing this is the end for a few months
This is what it feels like
To accept a love that will never exist.

*The original song that I made my own was Meat Loaf's "Did I Say That?". I only added my own story inside his lines, while keeping his original work in some parts.