Holding On

Holding on
My hearts says you're all I've got
Holding on to you
When I know you dont care whether I let go or not
Lost my mind,I did
It's becoming as faded as these memories
You turn your cheek,ignore it all
Why did you have to do this to me
Waiting for you to remember all the reasons to love me
When I really lost my reasons to love you
Really so tired of it all
Self destructive but all because of you
This is my love only
You're not sharing this with me
I feel the lack of passion
Its not the same when you kiss me
Fall apart at the thought of you
Fall apart when I know I'm not on your mind
You haven't been with me in so long
Why do I lie to myself and say your mine
You've never been,this was all lies
I tried and I forced it
Gravity was completely redefined
You said you hate losing people
But you let me go so quickly
I raced you to the edge
You were supposed to fall with me
And everytime I looked up,you were gone
You were my world
But then I discovered I was alone...
To be in love with you..
I created a illusion that never could be real
All the emotions I have for you
That you could never feel...
So it all falls on me
The pain,the misconceptions of love
Hurt myself for what I thought it was
I wondered why when I cried
You felt nothing,became distant
At my lowest,I searched for you
You werent there,you were missing
Then when the environment changed
You looked to me for things that were owed
Your self-righteousness was to much
You made me loathe
You don't know loyalty,to you love is a foreign term
I promise,I loved you the most
But you were the most important lesson to be learned
You could never feel the way I do
Its a shame,you were with me
And I was so lonely...
And I used to have dreams about being your wife
And now I know,it won't be me