get me through my days

The law of attraction gets me through my day even though I remain stuck in my ways
My sins will never be paid
I've paid the price
My existence balanced on the edge of a knife
My own wrists I constantly slice
How do I win
I take my pills with a bottle of gin
Counting down the hours
Wait for the end to begin
I live in sin
My sins belong to me
Is tha so hard to see
Break down these walls
Unshackle these chains
One day I'll be free
Free from the pain and the misery
Free from a world that tourchers me