All I ask

You and me, have come upon year #3

We have experienced so many entities and obscenities within that timeframe.

Unable to tame your beastly ways, put me in a purple haze, purple as the bruises in my heart from it being torn apart by your claws, but those same claws, mend it and reshape it, bruising being a part of healing. Then it's ripped again. I try over and over again to be "out there" again, even tried the online thing.

But..nothing ever resulted because nothing can break me from  you. I miss you. The old  you, the REAL you. All these parasitic people and chemicals are ruining what real you there is left inside of you. Your beautiful heart is becoming less and less.

And your "ex", what a mess of a stress that has progressed in my livelihood. If I could I'd figure a way to be rid of her quick fast in a hurry so I don't have to worry of her presence.. She would FINALLY be a fucking past tense. Since I am in the flesh, show you nothing negative, always show and give respect, loyalty and love,

All I ask...

Is for you to love me genuinely, to hold me like you mean to be, to touch me as if you desire me, to unfold me and make me quake from the wake of our love-making

All I ask...

Is for you to show me you give at least a damn or even a fuck about me. I promise, I will be discreet. I know how overbearing I can be. But please baby, remember me. Remember I am here.. I've seen you fall, I've been there to catch you, I've seen you through it all and I've been there to comfort and support you, I've seen you stand tall and I've been there to give credit where it is due to you.

I've always been the butt of your jokes and constant insults of my character, with the result of me shedding tears, mostly in silence. When you feed yourself that poison, I stay silent...only words that part my lips are "I love you baby". When you give yourself to those who are so undeserving and not me, I still speak highly of you because I know and love the REAL you.

I always make sure to tell you I love you, even when you turn into the beast that feasts on my feelings as if  it were your last meal, I still deal because I know our love is real and means something, at least to me.

For the rest of my days, I ask of you to be whole, to be clean, to be happy. Even if it's without me...as that pains me to say. But I know I will live another day if you decide to say that we are over. I know I will eventually start over, as hard as that will be, because a part of you is within me, and our kids are the reason I am becoming a better me.

All I ask...

Is for you to start to love me, to let yourself be in love with me as I am you and to let me love you

Forever