thinking style modifies experiential structures

thinking up a strange condition
by writing down felt thoughts and words
their phrases carry out unconscious visions
that reflect what becomes absurd
in the altering light of suspicion

whenever i try to wander
a valid way to look beyond
my now and past and i which got bond where
metaphors prespell what i respond
to find what lies ahead to ponder

until nothing is real at last
but dynamically changing on
each messed up meaning needs a head test
to show future ways ungone
but sensed on a madly read quest

but how to guess factual fiction
that means to foretell literally
which actually causes an abstract friction / which actually abstracts a causal friction
interpreting context liberally
within a concrete contradiction
to treat a temporal addiction