Perfection

Perfection    
   
I believe knowledge is power,    
but ignorance is much more convenient    
Tho I am torn by the bliss of not giving a shit,
I can't ignore my inquisitive nature    
 
From one extreme to the next;   
I must have read every book on the subject,
but I never mastered the art of balance --
Equilibrium must not be my talent    
   
Some people take little convincing    
but I need extensive review,
A full on investigation,    
A lengthy interrogation,    
with a minimum of eight dozen questions --
I need ample time to consider
before I ever make up my mind,
in the case that I actually do --
'Cause not only am I indecisive,    
I usually hold an opposing view;    
If the grain takes a right, bet I'll go left    
I was cursed in the skill of direction    
   
I'm not that easy to please,    
My skepticism is daunting --
I wouldn't believe a snake if it bit me,  
but I would spend hours on Google    
researching every species   
and learning all possible remedies --
Then argue like I was an expert
in the field of reptilian medicine --
If stubborn-quick-wit were a virtue  
then call me a know it all saint    
   
I am prone to distasteful behavior,    
I am reluctant to admit when I've been a bitch,
I despise when I make a mistake
I have acquired a taste for perfection;
It's not realistic, I just learned how to fake it    
   
I know how I can get distant,    
I am aware of my selfish resistance  
I have a flare for sarcastic remarks   
I say things I don't think about first  
I am irrational at best,
at my worst, Psychotic --
but only when I drink whiskey    
   
If my flaws were gold,    
I would be loaded    
I have far too many to count    
--that reminds me,    
add math to the list,    
I have never been good with my money    
After all, I'm only human!    
--Oh yes, I'm also defensive;    
Go ahead and tack on "sensitive"    
   
I am a work in progress    
I realize I will never be perfect    
But wherever I am on the journey    
I will always be trying to improve    
Through it all, I know you will still love me    
Through it all, I will always be loving you too