Forever Lost Letters pt.2

Dear brother,

If you're reading this, I hope you know that you're the reason I've decided to leave the world behind. Your cruel comments you saw as 'jokes' weren't funny but a devastating blow. Your jokes created self inflinting wounds upon my mind. I cried every night remembering what you always called me, or said to me in an attempt to be funny and I remember my cringful laugh I gave to show I wasn't affected but was. The things you've  said to me, and how you made me feel pushed me over the edge. I couldn't take the sleepless nights, the work of holding back my sobs at night, the hurtful lump in my throat, the puffy eyes in the morning, the burning sensation in my eyes, the scars on my soul. I just want you to know, I did all this because of you. And I hope you're happy. I hope you realize how cruel your jokes can be, and how much more cruel your comments are when your angry. I hope you realize you did this to me. And I hope you realize you'll be dealing with the guilt of killing your sister for the rest of your life.