Broken and Torn

I sit alone to think and write
Pretending everything in my life is alright
Hiding my emotions behind this mask
I don't know what's wrong with me so don't even ask
I love the way heroin makes me feel
It makes everything not so real
I fall into it's sweet seduction
But all it causes is deep destruction
I hate the way it makes me live
Feel I have nothing more to give
I hide behind this cloud of shame
But I'm the only one to blame
I've become the social outcast
And I don't know how much longer I can last
Before my depression eats me alive
Must find a new way to live and survive
All these feelings are making me pissed
I feel the need to no longer exist
I close myself off to the entire world
Into a ball I find myself curled
All of a sudden I'm lost and confused
By my thoughts I'm constantly abused