North Star (4, July 2015)

Constantly occupying my thoughts,
Invading my dreams;
Not a moment goes by where I'm not day dreaming about you.
You've opened me up;
Vulnerable and fragile,
And left me in the cold.
I feel broken and alone,
Right when I thought I was saved from myself.
You've inspired me,
You've encouraged me,
You've made me want to finally be me.
And that all went away when you went away...
I built trust in you sooner then I should have...
You didn't aim to hurt me,
I know that must be true,
But you disappeared without a word,
And I can't help to wonder why...
And if I'm the reason...
Did I say something?
Did I scare you off?
I thought I finally felt a connection with someone,
For the first time in a long time.
But it's not like you knew that...
Maybe you'll reach out to me again when you're ready;
And I'll be here,
Already reaching out to you;
Trying to find you again.
Let me give you closure if you need it,
Let me give you love if you need it,
Let me be your friend,
A shoulder to cry on,
A ear to lend,
Let me be your rock.
Platonic or not,
I want to be by your side.
You've opened yourself up to me,
Poured out your heart and soul.
And to others who've done the same as you,
I was not ready to reciprocate;
But for you I'm willing...
I'm willing to do anything to see you smile...
Come back to me when you're ready...