The Thought Of You..

No matter what I do I'm constantly distracted by the thought of you.
When I try to forget my body goes numb in refusal.
So I go back to loving you.
But sadly I know I'll never have what I want so I say goodbye...
Later the thought of you invades my thoughts once again.
And that's when I know I'm surely fucked.
Then the thought returns with force I'm thrown with force.
I remember all you mean to me.
So I finally care and agree with the feeling.
I now say you will be mine
I relieve all pain and I show my worth till the end.

           ...I love you...