Illusions

Where do we go, go from here?  
Searching for the right atmosphere  
I just wish things were crystal clear  
But things aren't as they appear  
 
Can't seem to grasp  
The need to let go
Going in circles  
Getting vertigo
The source of all the woe
I am quite aware
But will I ever know?
That I learn too slow
That I think too fast
That I'm just....
Fixated on the past

And when I realize its a waste
So much time has passed...
I've been harassed
By myself
And I
Am by myself...
 
Train of thought derailed  
So far off the track  
Need to realize
There is no going back