How I Feel

Im tired of being who I am cos I get fucked over
Someone call 911 before its over, and im gone
No one will remember me, when im gone
No one will cry over me, when im gone
And when im gone I wont look down cos im a soldier who had to back down
Instead il have my head high up in the clouds
Like look at me now I cant be more happier
Call me crazy but im breaking im shaking my feelings I aint faking

Too many people have abused my trust so im watching every fucker disappear like dust
Ive only got me myself and I and I don't give a fuck
If im in pain then im in pain but no one will hear from me again
Cos I aint worth no time I just wanna speak my mind
Cos im nothing but a kid I aint worth shit
And these cuts on my arms keep driving me nuts
Hoping for these sirens yet, I aint ever got that kind of love
Cos when im down no one picks me back up
That's why I always lay low and keep my mouth shut

But being alone is like the worst feeling ever
You got no one to hold
You got no one to phone, especially at 3am when you're left cold
Since her only love was like a blanket till she found a new bed
Now she's always in my head like a memory
And I just cant shake her away because for some reason I want her to stay
But as I close my eyes, I see demons round my bed
Im so depressed I open em up hoping that im dead
Im begging on my knees will it stop eventually?!
All of these twisted dreams keep eating me alive and that's why I cant keep a normal life

So when im gone please just move on
Cos im nothing but a nobody
I was never strong, but p.s please listen to this song