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Positivity
I’ve been reading a bit about positivity, this past hour.
I have been trying to project what I’ve read, mentally, in scenarios where I’m under stress to see how things work out.
I couldn’t make peace with the fact that sometimes letting go and keeping quiet is the best course of action.
That sometimes, just sometimes, shutting up and letting things happen is the only way to get over a bad situation.
The fallout can be dealt with. The one percent of our animal nature within helps us rebuild every time.
I can feel an uneasiness settling, making its home in the center of my being.
Writhing in malcontent and uneven distaste, counterbalanced hatred for this feeling I’m riddled with. Where is the good in all this?
Is that what forgiveness is? Swallowing the bitter pill? Turning a new leaf?
Among other euphemisms for being a suck up.
Something that’s very hard to do.
Two minds too blind to make themselves up. Nothing is accomplished in confusion.
One kills while the other cries.
Despair and hope side by side, waiting for one to rise and the other to fall.
Positivity is elastic, it can be stretched to fit over what you deem right.
It can be mistaken for a rush of energy, a thirst for life, a sense of achievement, an inebriated night.
All the while festering, brooding, decaying inside, a heart of sadness, that once did smile.
I have been trying to project what I’ve read, mentally, in scenarios where I’m under stress to see how things work out.
I couldn’t make peace with the fact that sometimes letting go and keeping quiet is the best course of action.
That sometimes, just sometimes, shutting up and letting things happen is the only way to get over a bad situation.
The fallout can be dealt with. The one percent of our animal nature within helps us rebuild every time.
I can feel an uneasiness settling, making its home in the center of my being.
Writhing in malcontent and uneven distaste, counterbalanced hatred for this feeling I’m riddled with. Where is the good in all this?
Is that what forgiveness is? Swallowing the bitter pill? Turning a new leaf?
Among other euphemisms for being a suck up.
Something that’s very hard to do.
Two minds too blind to make themselves up. Nothing is accomplished in confusion.
One kills while the other cries.
Despair and hope side by side, waiting for one to rise and the other to fall.
Positivity is elastic, it can be stretched to fit over what you deem right.
It can be mistaken for a rush of energy, a thirst for life, a sense of achievement, an inebriated night.
All the while festering, brooding, decaying inside, a heart of sadness, that once did smile.
Published 10th Apr 2015
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10th Apr 2015 3:03pm
My opinion is that you can't make peace with it because you know it's not right. To bottle emotions and suppress will only cause more problems in the end. Ignoring/avoiding is shortterm and those consequences will have detrimental affects later down the line. Releasing is essential and the first step to freeing yourself from negativity... It's all in how emotions are released/communicated.
Positivity shouldn't be touted as this 'shut up and forgive!' mentality. I can't stand that concept. I truly believe positivity comes with experience (evidence) of making it through negative experiences and believing that better outcomes can be achieved when one is willing to grow, evolve and learn. I believe positivity is an outlook and involves hope. There is a healthy and unhealthy amount though. People in the positive bubble get trapped in ignoring reality and believing things will work out because they're meant to. Positivity + realism = accepting worst case realities while hoping for ones better, searching for middle ground, and that middle ground usually involves finding the learning opportunities within each situation.
In addition, forgiveness should not be an expectation of people. Forgiveness is earned IMO. The way people invalidate themselves and justify actions to forgive astounds and troubles me deeply.
Just my opinion anyway. I know that was long lol.
Positivity shouldn't be touted as this 'shut up and forgive!' mentality. I can't stand that concept. I truly believe positivity comes with experience (evidence) of making it through negative experiences and believing that better outcomes can be achieved when one is willing to grow, evolve and learn. I believe positivity is an outlook and involves hope. There is a healthy and unhealthy amount though. People in the positive bubble get trapped in ignoring reality and believing things will work out because they're meant to. Positivity + realism = accepting worst case realities while hoping for ones better, searching for middle ground, and that middle ground usually involves finding the learning opportunities within each situation.
In addition, forgiveness should not be an expectation of people. Forgiveness is earned IMO. The way people invalidate themselves and justify actions to forgive astounds and troubles me deeply.
Just my opinion anyway. I know that was long lol.
11th Apr 2015 5:51am
I know what positivity is.
I wrote what positivity also is.
Poetic truth isn't always the real truth. Besides, I'm a pessimist. This is all that you'll get out of me.
Thanks for the long hearty comment!
I wrote what positivity also is.
Poetic truth isn't always the real truth. Besides, I'm a pessimist. This is all that you'll get out of me.
Thanks for the long hearty comment!
11th Apr 2015 7:48pm
Saw the title, and knowing you, thought "hmm, I don't think so somehow." ...lol
The last stanza could stand alone, and based on that, I would say you are more a realist. Hope is a cow, but at least you see that despair is an arse as well.
The last stanza could stand alone, and based on that, I would say you are more a realist. Hope is a cow, but at least you see that despair is an arse as well.
12th Apr 2015 2:44am
