Hopeless

I spend my days
trying not mutilate my body
or give in to this sense of hopelessness
but inside I'm drowning in a pit of despair
Fighting this war in my mind
as I fight to the surface for air

At night while in bed it continues
there is no escaping the voices in my head
I'm up all hours of the night until
I finally cry myself to sleep
inevitably once I fall asleep
I wake up screaming from the nightmares

I don't know why my mind does this to me
Its killing me that
I don't get the chance
to dream any more
My nightmares have taken over

My body is destroyed and ruined
Scars forever engraved in my skin
Now as I lay in bed
watching the clock
the numbers count down and
The more tormented I am