not in my book

i had my first boyfriend when i was in  10th grade
it was when i went to a new school
he kept  telling me how he thought i was so fuckin cool
when you asked me if i wanted to be your girlfriend
i hardly knew you
i said yes
one day when you and i went out to lunch,
one day he seemed nervous
he kept looking at his phone and not me and i thought i dont deserve this.
if a boy is looking at his phone from the get go
that means he wants to let go
you told me that your "supposed" friends had turned you polyamorous
i had never met his supposed friends so i had no idea if they even existed
i think you just found someone prettier than me and you didnt have the balls to say it to my face
ive never smoked another cigarette after i broke up with you, though i only tried one when i was with you
wow
you never told your mother that we were together
nor your father either
there is absolutely no excuse for how you treated me i started a band and then promptly kicked you out when i broke up with you
you shouldnt tell lies just to keep your secrets
i know about you and Robert
i dont blame him but i do blame you
you just simply dont know what i do.
when we were heading over in the vans
Robert asked me if i was okay and then let me vent for a while.
i have a wonderful new boyfriend now
that actually talks to my face instead of just making out with it.
he asks me how im doing and sincerely cares if the answers not good.
I love him.