Why?

Why?
Why are you in my mind?
I left you for a happier life,
But why do you still haunt me,
Why do you appear in my head?
When I am down and don’t want you,
Why?
Do you not know how much pain I am in?
You where the root of it.
Used me,
Abused me,
Mistreat me,
Lied and so much more.
I don’t want anything to do with you but you appear.
Why can’t you disappear!
I want to be happy and want to soar the blue sky,
But you keep me down and we aren't even together.
I didn’t want to be your damn toy!
I didn’t want to be pushed around by you and your sister!
God I hated it!
Yet I loved you at that time,
But I was glad to not fall for you.
Your love was just an illusion just like you were,
A two face coward and crybaby,
You didn’t even love me and I was glad.
I was glad I left you,
Especially on the most happiest time of the year,
My wings are stronger now,
After you ripped them from me.
Now all I can say to you is,
 “Fuck you. Leave me alone.”
I’m not a damn fool anymore,
After all your love was fake towards me
And my love wasn't even real with you.
I’m glad that I left you,
A poisonous spider
All I needed was to stomp you down before you could bite me.
Be glad I was nice when I left you.
Now just let me dream!
You're nothing but a wasted nightmare in my mind.