My Fault

you say it's meant to help us as a couple
but I say the pain is too much to endure.
I know she was yours just as much as mine
but I was the one that  couldn't bring her home.
I was the one who couldn't cuddle
with her and protect her from harm.
My baby could of been pure but I wanted to act immature
and keep her a secret.
I can admit I crossed the line
and my actions will forever replay in my dome.
And due to my actions, I was alone.
I had to deal with the pain of losing my child on my own.
I don't talk about her because it hurts
I won't ever be able to dress her up in little skirts
or teach her about the birds and the bees
and to always say please.
 And don't ever think that means I have forgotten about my child.
She was my angel, my heart, my soul, MY EVERYTHING!!!!
I wish I could have seen her smile
but I lost my child due to my own negligence.