75 Weeks Ago

75 weeks ago you was here now your up their and i cant see or hear you , my love your up above flying with the angels , while im sat here feeling like im dying , I feel as though im growing strong the weights , no longer not letting me breathe , I can breathe again but now the weight lies in my stomach as my mind becomes blank .. I miss you so much sometimes i forget how much wine i drank and just collapse in my dreams i get a glance of the life and love i once had a feeling ill never feel again , a feeling growing,  a horrible pain everyday intensifying more like im dying , Im living but inside im dying,  power rushes through my body now and anger bursts out im feeling the fire and burn of desperstion in my body for understanding. you were outstanding i feel so sick without you. throw to the back of my mind i can get on with my life but baby girl your alway on my mind your my soul partner for life x