Penis Envy

We Had not seen each other in very long time
I used to love the way she sparkled brightly, shimmering in the soft shadowy glow of the crescent moonlight          
the way we loved us was absolutely amazing and incredible
after she kissed me, she'd smile and say I was her perfect fit  
her once in a lifetime favorite thing, her forever and evermore
her happily ever after and fairy tale ending
but then one day, she was gone, and I was torn, wounded and left in shambles
      
It took me many Quarter moons, Half moons, full moons,          
and Crescent moons to heal every molecule within me          
the time missed seemed lengthy like lunar eclipses        
           
scarce like Haley's comet, yet she remained lingering on my frontal lobe  
she existed in my every emotional state, she was my fix  
I was transfixed and in a miserable condition  
 
for all my relationship problems "well if you were more like her          
I'd loved you like her" then they would bend to my every need            
cause they wanted me to love them like I loved her, like they wanted and desperately needed to be loved           
every memory she encompassed, even my speech she monopolized            
socially I was a hot mess without her
she was the hook to my jab
the body blow that would rattle the rib cage causing my opponent great agony  
the uppercut to my dodging, fatally knocking out any opportunity for a rebuttal          
           
sexually I have never felt nor experience anything like her            
sometimes I secretly wept using a pillow to hide my sensitiveness  
her sweat the sweetness of sugar water  
her cries, moans and screams were overlapping falsettoes    
her flesh, moist and tender, tasty and gratifyingly satisfying            
leaving me on an addicting high, the likes of which I wish never to come down from          
 
our sensual personalities in tune like musical instruments            
communicating in one beautifully synchronized classically composed harmonious overture.  
An introduction in an award winning Broadway Musical about maddening love, passion and satisfaction      
           
A long unforgettable time had passed, and yet! here she is, standing in front of me as if she had never left, because in essence she didn't        
and as I laid her down, she opens her warm succulent luxurious thighs, welcoming my yin to her yang          
           
"Nothing"          
           
"where THE FUCK are her tight fitting snuggly wet walls"? I quietly asked myself          
I paused, feeling shocked and stunned, she asked "are you alright.?"  
I looked in her beautiful magnificent hazeled eyes, kissed her sweet lips and smiled  
for the first time in my life I felt inadequate, I was no longer her yin  
 
looking downward at myself I seemed to be all there. My confidence and bravado was shaking, and I felt for the first time in my life Penis Envy. It was like I had been infected with a disease which threatened my very existence.  
 
FUUUCK! I need to purchase a Pump.🍆