Masochism.

Throwing the suffocating blanket on yourself 
Here you go again 
Tying your arm with a belt 
Strapping it down to the bed stand 
Pulling up the long sleeve rubbing the scars present 
Snatching the burner well, this is going to hurt like a motherfucker.
Slamming it down onto the already worn down skin you wail
Slapping yourself 
Baiting yourself calling it blackmail
Rubbing the mark sending shivers down your back repeating words after words, trying not to snap 
Turning the burner up high without being fully aware you shove it onto your arm again. once more. 
Feeling the blood rise, dropping onto the unforgiving carpet floor.
 .. And you still want more.