Childless Mother

What do you call a childless mother?
A child without parents is an orphan
A wife/husband without there spouses is a widow
But yet there is not a word to describe a childless mother...
Just a few moments ago I didn't know you were inside my womb...
I know that was wrong of me for not knowing but yet i didn't have any symptoms...
I would have loved to feel you kick...
I would have loved to have those sleepless night just to talk to you if were awake...
I would have loved to be able to hold in my arms for just one second...
But now it's not possible anymore...
Thanks to that stupid car accident I just had I lost you..
Three days later
I am here in the cemetery at your funeral...
Being here next to your casket its hard for me to say goodbye even tho you were barely being formed...
Just know mommy and daddy are sad that we couldn't see you grow...
We would have loved you very much...
Now I just lay here in bed hugging my tummy...
Praying to God for you to come back...
But it won't happened...
You are in a better place now
Somewhere better than here in this hell hole...
Mommy and daddy will miss you....