I'm Sorry

The moment we first started talking, I knew there was something special about you.
Girls don't talk to me, but you were nice and understanding and wanted to know me better.
I'm happy I got to know you better as well, I'm happy I got to call you my girlfriend.
Even if it was only for a couple weeks, I miss all the good times we had.
I've been broken too many times in the past, I didn't have to trust you with my heart, but I did, because it was the right thing to do, it just felt right.
Each time I see your beautiful smile, my heart lights up with joy, each time I see your beautiful smile, it puts a genuine smile on my face, not like other fake ones I've had to force upon myself.
I said I wanted you in my life forever and I meant it, I said I wanted to be your knight in shining armor and protect you from the world and this still holds true.
Ever since I have started talking to you, I have put you first in my life, to know you better, to get to know your personality better, and I did, to this day I still put you first in my life because you will always be my number one.
Ever since the day I hurt your gift to me, I've been trying to set things right, tried to make up for it, but no matter what I try, the distance between us grows, the trust you have for me thins.
I am really sorry for hurting you, I have been hurting ever since, I understand that you won't trust me again so easily, but I'm putting 100% effort to you, I want you to understand that.
I don't want to give up on you, and I hope you don't want to give up on me either, I want this to work again.
I was really happy and proud to call you my girlfriend and I hope one day again I can be deserving of that privilege.
I never meant to hurt you the way I did, it's just not me to be like that towards anyone.
I feel so bad for what I've done, I'm not asking for your forgiveness, I don't deserve it, I just want you to give me another chance to know you again.
I really miss the way we were and I am really sorry...