Deep Pain

Everyday that goes by I sit and think.
How she truly did mean.
I broke her heart and a vice versa scene.
I wish I could have treated her like a princess.
I wish she was my queen.
But all the love she had on me vanished along with these.
And with ease she learned to love again.
But here I remain in pain.
How I disire sweet dreams of a permanent sleep.
But yet when I speak of her I can't breath.
She is everything to me.
But now she was something to me.
I get angry through my pain.
Yell with my sorrow.
For my broken heart is sure to fail tomorrow if any if any.
I know of so many times we had and shared.
Promises been made and love was there.
Now I sit starring in a hole of forgotten.
I wish I could have take things I said back.
Re-lived some day in the past to fully understand.
I loved her and she loved me.
But not its a different way I see.
Why do I feel something with her.
When she doesn't feel the same.
I can never talk to her without leaving me to blame.
I guess I am destined for this gift of nothing.
Forever to never have anything good in my life.
Swollow the pain.
Realize this change.
It will never be the same.