Little Black Book

Breathe in
Breathe out
Fizzle and crackle
You. Can't . Think.
Sensory override
Everything is so much louder
Brighter
Bigger
They rise up
You shrink down
You're nothing
An insignificant speck
They laugh as you stammer and stutter through your sentence
Reading from that little black book
Breathe in
Breathe out
Every thought goes broken and unconnected
Every word jumbled and mumbled
Blinking rapidly
Make it go away
You want to disappear
Sink into the carpet
To be ignored
Left alone
In your little world of fantasy
Not brought out and showcased
A freak on display
They think you're just a quiet little nerd
They'll never see the other side
They could never comprehend the darker part of your mind
The little masochistic psychopath
Putting a blade into your skin just to feel something
Pouring your heart into a little black book
Found by a jock
Passed through cheer squad and football
Shuffled through soccer and track
Your every little secret on display
Every bad memory
Every word you never screamed
Every fear and nightmare recorded
Every deep desire and dark fantasy
In that little black book
Chronicled in those pen marked, bloodstained, pages