Depression

As the storm grows closer
My dreams get colder
And my thoughts go darker,
Thinking of all the mistakes
And heartaches that have happened
Believing that you deserve it all
And that it will never change
Seeing everyone laugh and smile
And loving their selfs
Yet I sit here in my own hell
Trying to fake this smile that only
Makes me drown a little more
Everytime i close my eyes
Because the feelings of self-worthlessness and hate or not
Being worthy or good enough,
Yet no one seems to see that
I can't make it through this storm
And that I'm dying more and more,
All they see is that fake smile or
Laugh that isn't because of joy
But because of pain, all they see
Is me acting yet all I see
Is the storm getting closer