Nothing

They're back.

Those green eyes are back to haunt me,
The ones I first saw 6 years ago.
One look and my heart froze,
My feet went cold,
And right then he has a hold
On my crazy heart

I'm fine with living in reality
But somehow his face always comes back to me
With perfect clarity.
I see him everywhere
Until my sight's blurred by tears

He's in my dreams again
With the damn green eyes of his
He left the back of my mind where I left him
Heavy in my heart where he crept in
Then I wake up staring at the ceiling
Seeing nothing.

Now comes the irrational hurt
He's not who he was,
Who I think he is.
But, God, he's beautiful...
Nothing can change that.

I don't even love him.
He doesn't really know me.
But somehow I fell into this insanity.
I don't even know if I want to leave.

I always was grateful
For my vivid imagination
Then I could write what speaks to me.
So what hurts the most
Is when it comes back to bite me
With the vision of him with her
Burned in my mind
Tugging at my heart
Beating me up

For someone I couldn't love.
For someone I can never have.
And all I can do is nothing.