A Dream Of You~  For H.E. Rowan

I had a Dream that you came back into my arms,
Dove under my skin and made my cold Soul warm.
Everything around me faded out of view,
And there I was, alone again, a fool for you.
I held you in the morning, then, again, at Noon,
I held you in my arms all night until I felt the swoon.
I held you patiently inside the candles light,
Long enough to warm you up, so you could treat me right.
You helped me find a different piece of mind each day,
And when I felt alone you helped me find my hideaway.
You showed me Pain and Pleasure shortly followed,
Flooding through my veins, filling up all that was hollow.
Something in your stinging kiss fulfills the crave,
Each time, surely, sending me much closer to the Grave.
A Dream it may have been, but, oh, the way it felt!
To hold you in my arms again, biting on a belt.
You were my oblivion, that's why I let you go,
Now a Dream of you is all I wish to know.
You helped me find destruction, my old, beautiful friend,
But, like all things, destruction, too, must come to an end.
I wish to look within myself and try to heal,
All the Pain and Loneliness that we tried to conceal.
The Dreams aren't helping, though, it's like you're calling me back,
A Phantom of the old Blood Train, trying to lay new tracks.
So, here's to you, old friend, for helping me find Peace,
Here's to all the Darkness that you helped me to release.
Here's to all the Joy you brought, also all the Pain,
Here's to all the times you made me feel fucking insane.
Here's to all the good times, here's to all the bad.
I'll never take you back, but you're the best I've ever had.


~ For H. E. Rowan