Fears and Tears

Sitting in my shadow.
Looking at my life.
The tears and fears  begin to creep.
I'm dead living on these streets.
Begging the man for just a dollar.
Please sir, I'm starving!
I know he won't donate though.
My arms covered from my own hate.
The addict that lives inside.
The fears and tears.
Leaning into the corner I'm stuck in.
Just to find out the foundation is thin.
I'll fall through the wall.
All the way down to the ground floor.
Hit with such an impact I sank even lower.
Do you know what it's like to be under rock bottom?
My fears and tears are oozing out.
The wild preparing to tear me about.
You can't live on the streets while being weak.
You can't live my life so meek.
I've done this before, why am I scared?
Maybe because I'm not the same man.
But I'm not.
I figured I grew.
I'm not 12 anymore.
So what's new?
This situation should be easy.
I shouldn't be scared.
Yet my fears and tears cover the air!
Maybe before I didn't know love.
Maybe before I didn't care if I lived!
I knew the place where I was alone before.
Here, it's hell on Earth and I am ignored.
For the first time in forever I feel like I'm done.
For the first time I feel like I'm hung.
I cry to God and ask him why.
I get no answer from the sky.
Not because he's not there.
But because my fears and tears are clouding the air.
I can't get my answer because I'm lost.
Looking for my shepherd, at such a high cost.
I'm so scared being my life is about to be done.
My fears and tears have darkened the sun.
Can't live with any fears.
Can't live with any tears.
Not where I'm going.
That is a fact.
Not where I am.
There is no slack.