of this i ask is it too much?

Heavenly Father up above i send Fernando all my love and if he cant see that than what will it be?the night has past the morning has come not a minute of rest with the thought of what have i done. Have i lost you or not i got to know and if i have the pain will show but no-one will ever truly know. The pain ive caused the one i love. Oh lord what have i done. I miss his voice and his calming touch of this i ask is it too much? I love him lord but im caught in rope oh Lord oh lord how can i cope. I need him now but only how to convince this man
that i can
Love him always in my heart lord i pray we never part. Dont you see im up all night with tears that poor within my heart. I cant loose you so what can i do to hold you and love you forever so true. Forgive me please or ill rott in sorrow never know what god brings tomorrow. My hopes are high but i sit and cry i love him so much his warm tender touch of this i ask is it too much? Forgive me please im begging on my knees. AMEN