This time, I heard you leave..

Just this once,
I heard you leave.
Unlike the other times,
when you slipped away so silently.
Before,
I never woke,
I never moved,
and you never breathed.
This time,
I heard you scream,
and say goodbye to me.
That night,
I saw you bleed,
from the wound,
self inflicted,
because of me.
I held your thoughts,
and prayed that this,
was only a bad dream,
unknown reasons,
and things unseen,
caused you to take yourself away,
and cause that first rip,
at my sanitys' seam.
Please hear me,
and understand these things,
fully come to realize,
this hole dug deep,
into me,
from you,
rooted from the places we've been.
I love you,
and I'd like to think,
that you love me too,
even though I can't change,
the past things I've done to you.
I'd give up anything,
to one last time,
hear you leave...