Do you mind if I hand you back your pain...

How long is forever really suppose to be
because in my head with you my forever was sitting next to me
but you chose to leave..
Said something in your heart no longer resembled we
and now I sit wishing I could hand you back the pain
but it hurts even when speaking of your name
but I have to act ok...
Because of the decisions you made
I have to say fine no really its ok with a blank face
because my pride refuses to show this emotion
The one of betrayal you wish I'd show
Instead i'll pretend every things perfect every time you decide you wanna know...how i'm doing that is...but on the inside my rage hasn't yet grown thin
I wanna scream and cry
Burst from my heart how much i wanna break down inside
bet you'd love that..
Seeing a diffrent side of how my heart reacts to pain
You always seen me so strong just trying to maintain
Now you break me down to the point im going insane