Addiction

I'm getting bad again,
Everyday i wake up feeling the same thing..
lugubrious.

Thoughts of suicide,
On my mind 24/7
it's like..i'm high!

Every moment i think of ways to harm myself,
To inflict pain upon the skin,
And i hate it so much.. i love it.

I can't quit!
It's like a drug,
I can't get enough..and i know i'm not gonna' make it.

I can feel it in my bones.
The adrenaline
To feel pain!

I'm never going to quit.
I'm never going to quit.
  I'm never going to quit.



Until i die.