I worry There's Nothing Underneath That Mask You're Wearing

Now I should start by giving you a disclaimer
These are truths I would say to you
If you gave me a chance
If you weren’t constantly disappearing
They’ve said my fatal flaw is honesty
A modern day Pinocchio
I’ll tell you how it is
My idea of the matter at least
But you boys run away from danger
Real is dangerous
Real can hurt
I’ll tell you how it is
Mixing up the words
I
And
You
And
Like
And suddenly I make it concrete
Lacking any mystery
And you only crave deception and vague hope
I just wish you didn’t try to be like one of those rap guys
The always-on-tour
A-new-girl-every-night
Too-drunk-to-remember-much-of-anything-let-alone-me
Rap guys
You can’t even sing
You’ve managed to transform your eyes into tornados
And left your words dripping with seduction on my chest
While living behind this wall of emotion you let no one get past
You feel nothing but the warmth of my skin
When I’m gone you only feel cold
But not empty
Not an ache
You do not miss the space I was just filling
You miss the fingers on your chest
Not even because they were my fingers
Any will do
You kept your eyes closed just to imagine I was someone you could like
Someone not so convenient
And once confronted you’re slippery
Frustration won’t allow me to let you go
I have to have answers
Have to know that I’m not smoke in your eyes
That I am not untraceable once I leave
That you’ll remember pieces of me
That you felt something besides a physical void being filled
I wish you didn’t pretend to be like one of those rap guys
And I wish my fatal flaw wasn’t honesty
And I just wish you were here to listen to me