Drugs

drinking again
entering in
the blood stream from unnatural high

smoking again
feeding appetite
of a stagnant liquid cloud 

and your eyes are haunting
and I massage you with my heart 
and fingertips as I watch you watch me
though the hardest part is I'm hallucinating 

I set my phone alarm for nine
don't want to be seen by the man that I
pretended was you when I fucked him 
while I wasnt quite awake 

everyone is talking
cleaning and smoking
discussing the evening
it means little to me - hazy feeding evening 

smoking again
fucking up
the image of stagnant liquid inside a cloud 

and your eyes are still there
and I feel you massage away my heart
tween your fingertips as I watch you watch me
though you're not here and it's the hardest part
knowing I'm just hallucinating all over again