death by love

i sit and wait for the vows to be held true  .
i know i am not the woman you married and for that i am truly sorry but let me die each day without your touch , to make me beg for your affection is just cruel . i would rather have you break my body then break my heart and yet you smash it to pieces every chance you get . to hell with you and your lies . death would be so much sweeter . i feel the blood rush out of my wrists . once again held , once again loved , once again wanted even if it's only by death himself !!!!