Wish

Why are you doing this,
Growing up, I only had but one wish,
That was to become a lady and find a good man,
One that would be loving, devoted, and be able to understand,
One who will be there to share my life with me until the very end,
Someone I can totally put all my trust in, to be my best friend,
And on cold winter days,
In front of the fireplace our naked bodies will lay,
As we explore each other in foreplay,
And to be able to say whatever it is that we needed to say,
I thought that I found that man, but now I am not feeling so certain,
For my heart and body you can continue to keep hurting,
You may not want to believe any of this,
The truth is I must flee from here,  than maybe you will miss,
No more me, no more tender lips for you to kiss,
I will go so far away, I have to get away from here,
No matter how scared I am or what I may fear,
I have to stand up for myself....I need to make a decision,
For there has been way to much heart ache and confusion,
I know that I have done everything that I possibly could,
It did not matter, we are both still terribly misunderstood,
A human being can only handle so much,
Before they realize that they are totally out of touch,
I will always have a place in my heart for you,
I am sorry that we will never have the chance to say "I do,"
This dream will never be able to come true,
My heart and my memory will remember our time together,
All of this heartache! I should have listened to my mother.