decepted

 burning inside from deep within, rolling the dice hoping the outcome will be different.
standing alone at the end of a journey that has never even
began.
lost in the darkness lost in the light, memories come and go
becoming too tired to fight.
if misery loves company then why the hell do I feel so alone
lost in this world cant find the way home.
searching for something that I can not even name, boldly
standing as I am smothered in shame
a smile is merely a faked lie, laughter spews from my mouth
as inside I shrivel and die
learning lessons as I stumble through this life, forgetting the pain I once again deny
deny what I know, deny what I believe, guess my soul and heart are blind even though my eyes clearly see.