I was there once

My kin how I miss you
My son I wasn't there for you
My magic 8 ball led me from you
This crystal ball
Clouded all of my thoughts
My little black sheep
Misguided you weep
Missing all my love
Yet here I am above
Enjoying my life
As you grow a lie
Soon I shall pass
As you study in class
My son I wasn't there for you
It couldn't  be so true
To stand by your wound
Inflicted on your arm
When your family was so rude
Causing a darkened mood
I can stand
in the sand
wishing your hand
To be holding mine
My son I was never there for you
Bastard child I shall never pay
Moneys what I owe they say
To which I have forgotten you
My lies as I lay inside a tomb
Will always remain the only truth
Your mother
She was always there for you
Bringing you from her own womb
She never truly fall
For my misguided disguised
Soon I shall arise
From a grave she lied
Soon we shall talk
Never to walk
Side by side
Bastard son who els was there for you
This crystal lined shoe
Guided me to you a new
Surprised I see to hear my voice
To know now is your only choice
Your mother protecting
Your very fragile heart
For I was neglecting
Tearing us all apart
You were reflecting
My action at heart
As your life slowly fell apart
Walking a blizzard
That you forecasted upon yourself
My son I wasn't there for you
Tonight you died
At least you tried
Tonight I die
Without you
Tonight I die
Wishing I was with you
Tonight you died
Wish I was there for you