When you..love

When you love someone an yet they dont you. You want to cry, rip your heart out hoping it would hurt less,  be mean, go cold, or just turn around an say no more.  Because it hurt more than to say what you really feel. You just rub it off saying "im use to it" . Then you go home sit in your bed. Wondering this is the life I led.  I been threw so much why must I go threw more. An just when your foot right out that door. You relize "who am I anymore"