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A Writer's Journal: Entry IV

I have everything figured out-- Events, plots, characters but I can't help but feel I'm missing something. . . Oh right--

A beginning.

I don't think these things through very often, do I? My mother and boyfriend are helping me, I just don't think I'm helping myself. Maybe we should re-read some of the second and third books, see how their stories ended?

Maybe. . .

I can't help but thinking about the puzzle metaphor that I made in my last entry. But the more and more I look at this-- The more and more frustrated I get.

I want to take my time, and figure it out but I don't have a single idea. I mean I do but I don't and it's-- It's driving me insane. I have the right pieces I just don't know how to put them together. I wish that someone would just give me some advice, maybe I'm doing something wrong or something.

Writing use to come as easy as breathing, there isn't suppose to be all of this stress, anger, depression and anxiety involved in writing. But there is and it-- It takes the fun out of writing. And I never want to take the fun out of writing but I have, and it feels like it slowly killing my soul and breaking my heart.

This break-up with my writing ability is the worst that I've ever been through, it's the worst feeling in the world because it feels like I've lost a part of me.

I feel so lost right now.

And I'm just hoping to find a way out.

- Paige Rider
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