Numb

Sitting here with this notebook in hand
Searching deep down for the feelings I once had.

They just don't want to come anymore.
It's like I'm an empty shell.

I know they should be somewhere
Maybe deeper than I'm willing to go
Maybe I don't notice them.

I'm numb.
To everyone
To everything.

I mimic the right expressions at times
Sometimes getting the looks and tones wrong
Always indifferent to the topic at hand.

Stuck in the same place
In the same yet different thoughts

They say I should get out of this mindset.
That I "shouldn't have to live this way."

But it's better like this.
I'd rather not feeling over getting hurt.



-2013-