Suicude nights

Suicide seduces me ,promising to smuther the pain
A definite ending to the relentless noise
An offer that would seem far to irresistible to deny
Little capsules of poison slither down my throat
No conviction ,nor the courage
The countless attempts tease my mind
Death dances through my veins and flutters through my heart

Maybe it's the thrill of the chase?
Poison undresses the life inside of me
Pleasuring my demons
Layer by layer,feeding my hunger for death
But only a little taste
Primal instincts for survival have been drowned by a flood of hatred
I long to go all the way but my greed I's too overwhelming
I want to feel death seep into my blood time and time again  
I'm not ready to give a final good night kiss to suicide

Not yet .