Channeling Blue

It's been a nightmare letting you go
I could tell you about the awfulness
Or I could spoil you with the good old days
I could enchant you with the past
Or begrudge you with the more recent events
At my expense
I paid a listening ear or two
I expounded my sorrows
But to me they all sounded like

I miss you

Channeling blue
I am lacking your spectrum
I am lacking your protection
There's a crack in my armor
Where you were once my shield
Uncommon lullabies used to drift me to sleep
Now there all that keeps me awake
A merry go round you keep spinning

But the worst of it is
To me you are everlasting
To you I am nonexistent
Apathetic lies
And you don't care
No matter how loud I scream

I miss you

Everywhere
Channelling blue
All because of you