Random Thoughts at 2am...

Do you ever wake up in the middle of the night, with all your anxieties of everything seem magnified???

I do...

Ordinarily, I would wake up in the middle of the night, almost in a panic, sitting in quiet stillness of the dark, Thinking about everything, ok not everything, but...almost...

As If i am hanging onto a thin vine over a cliff, but i can't see the bottom...
I am hanging on for dear life,
Hanging on to My Expectations as  Grandfather, Father, Husband, Brother, Friend...
Hanging on to Realization that my kids, my family, my parents are getting older..
Hanging on to the worry that i haven't done nearly enough to prepare my kids for the real world

I can't be and shouldn't be hanging on so tight, maybe i just need to put my faith and trust in everything,
I love, and  just let go....

How far will i fall? What will happen when i hit the bottom???

Like the future?  Nobody knows...But when i do, i am going to hit the ground running....

Thankfully I work nights, so i don't wake up in the middle of the night as much anymore...