Pain in translation

afraid to love
I'm afraid of being hurt
again
I can't let my past dictate who I am
Who I trust..
Or hinder me from opening up again..
But you see
You screwed it up..
You broke me...
Because I trusted you..
I told you everything
You used me..
You hurt me...
Gave me hope and yanked it away
Only to easily..
So I don't want to let anyone in..
Ever again
Because that kind of death
Hurts more than anything
Because I realize I have been
kidding myself..
I was delusional..
The worst part isn't even that you did it
Its that I let you..
That I can't even be mad
Since I was really falling for you
To bad
I ended up falling into a bottomless pit
That I can't get out of
Without help, now I dont want to let people in
I am afraid to
Because I let you in and you walked out ..
With my broken beating heart