Numb

I was feeling so numb
My heart wasn't beating
There was no air in my lungs  
I needed something to make me feel alive again
So I took a blade and sliced through my skin
 
I cut my wrist and I cut my legs too
I was drowning in red  
There was nothing else for me to do
 
At this point the cutting wasn't enough  
There were so many thoughts going through my head
I said whats the point in living I'm already dead
 
I hated my self I hated my life  
I swallowed a bottle of pills in hopes that I would die.