Drowning in the unreachable part of pain.

I talk always.
But I don't know why
I can't say a word
Whenever I get sad.

I want to explain,
But noone cares.
So instead of words,
What comes out are tears.

I tried to hold them in,
But even I'm hollow
I feel an overflowing sadness.
Something I've got no control over.

But even with crying,
Tears couldn't be understood.
I've got to put them into words,
For others to at least see.

I want to,
But they already have a reply,
Something prepared before even hearing me.
No. They'll never care.

Just.... where do I put it all? All these pain, these hurt, they're rotting inside me. It's all drowning me. It has become an ocean of pain. Continuously dragging me down to it's bottomless part. It's cold, it's dark, and has too much pressure. I can't reach the surface anymore, and it could never reach me again. But... Maybe that's why no one can understand. Maybe because they don't see the real me. And maybe that's the way it's supposed to be. I can't drag anybody else with me. I do't want them tosuffer the way I do. I can't let them save me. I am bound to drown for-ever.